Song of the…

When I said that I would leave you
I meant “Don’t let me go”
and instead of saying yes to you
I said – I’ll let you know

I put myself above you
so you’d think me some great prize
and blamed my faults upon you
all because of my false pride

So I know you have good reason
for complaining like you do
because I never really thought of you
just ‘to mine own ego’ was I true

But the truth is I’m embarrassed
for how badly I’ve behaved
and for being such a coward
I really am ashamed

Cause I don’t want you to guess
how helpless that I feel
and that I don’t know how to save you
even though my love is real

There is so much I have to learn
and if you’re needing proof
just look at how I twist and turn
and struggle with the truth

I cannot be your hero
and I don’t always understand
and really I just want you to see
the child within this man

I’m so scared that you will leave me
when you see my acts a sham
and that I gave up long ago
on being loved for who I am

I need a guiding hand in life
and need you to be strong
I need you to be virtuous
and let me tag along

Set me goals I can accomplish
and praise me where you can
not for the act – just for the steps
I take to become a man

Cause I still have tantrums like a baby
and think I must get my way
and I don’t know how to listen
and I haven’t learned to pray

So love and please don’t leave me
and help me learn to get along,
but stop crying and getting angry
cause it’s really you who’s strong

To make me feel bad won’t change things
cause I’m already wracked with shame.
and sometimes you must say “no” for me
and kindly say my name

and if I’m being brutish
you must make me face the law
You must show concern with courage
if you want my heart to thaw

Cause I won’t respect a victim
and you won’t beat me at that game
and if you really want to tame me
you can’t be scared of public shame

Cause it will take men with integrity
that I squarely have to face
you see I’m craving a strong father
and you’ll never take his place

And I’m trying hard to trust you
which I don’t know how to do
and I hope you can forgive me
and I hope that we’re not through